The Purpose(s?) of Blogs

So many of my friends now have blogs and they all seem to have them for different reasons. For some it is a conduit to what they are thinking at the time. For others it is a forum to proclaim their frustration and/or political stances. And even more of my friends have a blog to put forth ideas with a Christian twist or a new way to look at life.

I have no idea why I have a blog. Other than the fact that it is a cool way to communicate. Some people will probably look at my blog and think it is stupid or no real deep purpose. Well they are probably correct. These are just my thoughts and a lot of the time I am dumb or stupid, naive or just a plain nincompoop. But every once in while I think I do say something that may impact others who read this. So I keep plugging away, trying to navigate my way in the realm of blogdom.

I am really not enjoying life right now. Things are not going my way and I would love to have a huge pity party and yell and complain about how people are so frustrating and that friends should sign a pact at the beginning stating that if they leave the town then they are required to keep in touch, a guess that is a cross between a pre-numptial and child custody agreements with a twist of manipulation.

I hate arguements and misunderstandings, I hate that I am so stubborn sometimes to admit I was wrong. And I really hate it when people assume they understand me. I mean, if I don't understand myself most days then why do others think they can.

I have been around 5 times by a person I work with that there other jobs. Sometimes it was said in jest but other times it was said with full seriousness and in my eye totally out of the blue. He just comes up to my desk and says..."if this (meaning work) gets to rough don't kill yourself, there are other jobs"

My community, my close friends whom I call family, is in turmoil. I am reminded of the guy spinning plates on the post. I feel like I am in the audience watching as bit by bit, pieces of my community, people I call friends and brothers, are spinning and I am just watching wondering if they will fall and shatter or if the master spinner will keep them going no matter how wobbly it is from my perspective. Some plates are being picked up by the spinner and moved to a new location far away and other plates are desiring to be used for a different purpose. I want to lunge out and stop all the plates and keep them nice and still but unforunately, the spinner is in control and I can do is watch in antipication to see which plate the spinner touches next.